I often look back and take an inventory of my life. For example, at specific points I like to reflect on who I was at that moment in time, what did I believe in, what made me happy, who was I hanging around with, who was I dating, where was I working, and what were my goals. You know, stuff like that. When I start to assess the lists, I begin to see clearly where I was in my self-love journey. I feel like those are markers to keep good place holders on past progression. With all of those assessments, I was able to really see myself and although it can be super liberating, it was really scary at times. This is all a part of of the process and how we ultimately grow mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Present day, I continuously preach about getting back what we put out. I believe I truly knew that back in the day, I just didn’t care enough to live by it. I still had a bunch of learning to do. I fully embrace that now, and it was all of those lessons that made me who I am today. I feel like the majority of the time we know what we are doing as far as hanging with the wrong crowd, or doing stupid shit. We are taught at a pretty young age about right and wrong, and unless you are complete sociopath you generally know when you are doing something that is morally wrong or goes against every single thing that you believe in or stand for.
Looking back, I wish I realized sooner that everything is temporary. I use to stress out so hard and worry my life away over dumb shit that really didn’t matter. I see now, that some of that was learned behaviors. I feel like when we don’t have the proper self-worth or self-love in place we can really fall off the rails. I used to be such a grudge holder and honestly that is draining and pointless. Once you fully embrace the fact that you cannot control others actions, opinions, or emotions, and that we are only responsible for our own, can you really start to let shit go. That is my message to you. Let it go. I am going to go out on a limb and say that 9 times out of 10, the things that really stress you out or grind your gears are the shitty actions or words of others, right? We do it to ourselves and often forget at the end of the day we hold the key to our own emotions and happiness. No one else can make you happy if you do not truly feel it within you. Trust and believe that a little self-love goes a long way. You learn lessons from people and situations and those lessons are a stepping stone. Use each stone to move towards what you really want in life. Let it strengthen you and prepare you for what comes next. Even if you have to cross hundreds of stones, know that everything is temporary and you are in total control of your life. Stay true to yourself and your journey.
courageously choosing you 